Looming Lumpectomy

This isn’t my usual lengthy post but I just wanted to blog how I still feel about Thursday and everything in general and that is …not very much !

How odd is that ? I would expect to feel edgy, apprehensive, tearful and so many emotions. But no, not really. And I am sleeping like a log ! It’s actually quite a nice state to be in. I wonder if I am in some sort of shock maybe ? Certainly not denial. I wonder if my mind and body has thrown me into this hazy state to cope. Because none of it is going to be much fun.

I wonder if I will still be blogging this state of mind next week ?

I had a wonderful morning with two fab friends from playgroup days yesterday. We talk about everything. The funny. The nitty gritty. The painful. Great girlie stuff. So yesterday was a bit dominated by my breast cancer but not in a negative way. It always feels good to talk about it with the right people.And then it was on to our usual chatter. It was just the tonic I needed. Thank you to those two wonderful friends.

But s I promised myself , I do want to share light-hearted and funny moments of this journey and here is one that you can only really laugh at and we howled yesterday. At 8.30am on Thursday I am heading into Nuclear medicine for a radioactive blue dye to be injected into the areola. This will highlight my lymph nodes. Anyway, and I will leave you with this thought….the leaflet then states..” Someone will then massage your nipple for 5 minutes” 😯🥺!!

I mean how long is that 5 minutes going to seem !!!! And who will it be ???? The mind boggles and what a way to start the journey🤣🤣

xx